Dirty Little Secret --7--

Sooo soory for no birthday post butttt HAPPY BELATED 23RD TO KRISSSS!
And the game was amazing, I still have no voice :)
Link to the pictures: http://www.flickr.com/photos/49555374@N05/

And as an added warning, I'm working in the stables at a summer camp this year, sooo I won't be home at all. So starting in the begininig of June there won't be any updates until I come home 2 times a month. :(

and another story might be happening veryy soon that ties in with this one.

This post skips ahead a bit to the end of the season. Enjoy and leave feedback. and i did lose a follower, which is kind of disheartening, so spread the word :) :)

**KRIS'S POV**

April, the month that is, came around in no time. Luckily, we didn't have to fight to make the playoffs this year. On the 2nd of the month, April turnened 21, and the team was planning a party for her at Diesel after the Thrashers game on the 3rd.
As for our relationship, we considered outselves "dating", as much as we could be with the circumstances. April had signed a contract that she wouldn't become "involved" with any of the players. It was nice to know that she cared that much about me that she was risking her career to be with me.
We drove to all the games together, and the game on the third was no exception. Except that night, as we walked into the locker room, Mario was waiting for April, a stern look on his face.
"April," he looked back and forth between the two of us before turning to her, "Ray and I need to speak with you upstairs immediately." With that, he nodded at me and left the room.
I saw the panic on April's face, she knew that he knew about us. She was afraid everything was over.
"Kris...he, he knows." She was shaking, near tears.
"Ape, maybe, I don't know, maybe he wants to talk to you about the playoffs or something." I hugged her, trying to calm her down.
"Yeah. I have to go." She gave me a quick kiss on the cheek before leaving the locker room, waiting to know her future.

**APRIL'S POV**
The elevator ride to Mario and Ray's offices felt longer than it should. I knew from Mario's face in the locker room that he knew. But how? Kris and I always tried to arrive before the others so that few people would see us together. I guess we weren't descreet enough. I arrived at the office door after what seemed like hours and knocked, met by Ray's voice.
"Come in, April"
I took a deep breath and opened the door to see Ray and Mario standing behind the desk looking at a paper. My "uninvolvement" agreement.
"You...you wanted to see me?" I kept my head down, avoiding this at all costs.
"April, we have to discuss a very serious matter with you. You might prefer to sit." Ray motioned to the chair infront of the desk and I flopped into it, still shaking.
"April, you remember the papers you signed when you first joined us, correct?" Mario held the papers up to show me as I knodded.
"One of those papers was an agreement that your relationship with the players would be on a professional basis only. Well, we've heard some rumors, and you're actions as of late confirm them. I'm sure you know what we're meant to do in such situations." Mario looked at me, waiting for my response.
"You...you.." I was choking up, fighting tears. They had to fire me.
"You have to fire me." I continued to keep my head down, which caused me to miss the smile spreading across Mario's face.
"Which is why you should be glad we're not like other bosses."
I looked up confused at him and watched him rip the relationship agreement in half.
"You're free to go April. You have a game to assist with." Mario motioned toward the door and I got up smiling.
"Mario?" I stopped in the doorway to see him and Ray laughing.
"Yes, April?"
"That was NOT funny." I turned and walked out the door, Mario and Ray's laughter behind me.

**KRIS'S POV**
April avoided me throughout the game. Did they fire her? Tell her not to talk to me? I was completely stressed until after the game, when I had to ask her.
"April, you have to tell me everythings ok, I worried the entire game about it." She wasn't facing me while I spoke.
"Kris," she turned and kept her head down while she spoke, "they're fine with it." She looked up at me with a HUGE smile on her face. I picked her up and swung her around before kissing her qucikly.
"God, I love you April" I hugged her close to me.
"Kris, do we haveee to go to Diesel?"
"Yes, why?" She was so excited to go earlier.
"I don't know," she pulled away from me with her face down, "I just thought we could go to my place?"
Her place. I'm no player, but I know what that means. And I wasn't going ot pass it up.
"Well, we'll make the Diesel appearence short." I kissed her again before walking with her to my car, imagining what tonight would hold.

Feels Like Home --6--

**KRIS'S POV**

God damn the echo in this building. I could hear every conversation in the halls while I stretched. So much for focusing. Sometimes it paid to listen to the conversations. I could always tell what Sid's latest complaint was, or who Talbot took home last night. I could always hear the visiting team too. There was once voice that always stuck out, Dan Carcillo.
"Ohhh. Temper. You know, that's pretty attractive." I rolled my eyes at this one. Did he seriously think any woman would be attracted to his line? I stopped listening and started to focus until I heard that one voice. April.
"Carcillo, let go of me. Now" She was panicing, I could tell. As soon as I heard her I instantly stood up, on full alert. I heard Staalsy say something and I started to run to where I heard them.
I rounded the corner to the visting locker room and saw them. That goon had his dirty hands on her. She was turned away from him as much as she could be, trying to hide near Jordan. I saw him take another step towards her and it all boiled over. I ran to them as Carc threw another insult Jordan's way.
I wanted to push him away from her and kick the shit out of him. But before a game? I wouldn't risk it. I did all I could do, I just grabbed her away from him, leaving him and Staal to their words.
April instantly started crying as soon as Dan couldn't see her. The visitors locker room door slammed, indicating Carc went back where he belonged. I stopped April at a bench to let her sit down, she just grabbed me and cried.
"Wow," I thought, "I could really get used to this." Well, minus the crying. I wanted to be the one that made her happy.
"Kris?" She was speaking through sobs. They were tears I couldn't stop.
"Yes?"
"Thank You. I was so scared. I didn't think he would try anything, but...I...I didn't know." She hugged me tighter and cried some more.
"April, you have nothing to be afraid of." After I spoke she stopped crying and looked up at me and smiled.
"Love ya, Tanger" She hugged me again and smiled.
"Love ya" I knew she meant it in a best friend way. God, why couldn't she have meant it otherwise.
"You too April"
She couldn't understand just what I meant.

**APRIL'S POV**
God, he couldn't have understood my inner meaning of that "Love ya". I wanted to tell him I wanted to be with him, that I wanted him to be my rescuer every day. I wanted him to rescue me.
I could really get used to this Kris hodling me thing. It felt so right, like home. Everything that had happened earlier just melted away in his arms. I wasn't scared. Surprisingly, I was happy. I never wanted the game to start. I just wanted to stay here, with Kris, forever.
We beat the Flyers 4-1, with some huge hits on Carcillo. After he game I headed to my car in the mainly empty lot; I was always one of the last ones out. I put my bag into the back and slid into the drivers seat. I tried to turn the ignition, no dice. Tried again, nothing. Great. I finally gave up after about 5 tries and got out to call my roommate.
"Hey you got Lea's voicemail. Leave a message and I'll...." She would not answer at a time like this.
"SHIT!" I screamed and kicked my tire.
"Uhm, April?" I turned around to see Kris standing outside his SUV, keys in hand, laughing at me.
"Shut up Tanger." I was glad he couldn't see how embarrassed I was because it was dark.
"Would you like a ride home?" Always the gentleman.
"Uh, yeah, thanks." I grabbed my bag and got in his car.

**KRIS'S POV**
"Attwood Street." She gave her address as I started the car and pulled out of the arena lot. God, I was starving. Would she want dinner? Worth a try.
"You hungry, Ape?" She looked exhausted.
"Shit, I forgot my walelt in my car. I think I have food at my house." Ouch. Was she serious or letting me down easy?
"April, I'll pay. No big deal."
"Really?" She thought I wouldn't? I knodded as we headed onto Forbes.
"OK then. I'll pay you back at the arena, Kris, I promise."
"April, no need." I smilled at her and pulled into the Fuel&Fuddle lot.
Dinner was...fantastic to say the least. I laughed more with her at that table than I have since Luc died. I didn't want to drive her home, I wanted to stay out with her until tomorrow.
I pulled up to the building she showed me. Did she have to leave?
"Well, this is me, Kris. Thanks so mcuh for dinner and the ride." She smiled and reached for the door to get out. It was now or never.
"Wait, April." God, what was I doing.
"Yeah?" She turned back around and leaned towards me.
"Just do it." It was the main thought soaring through my mind. I couldn't take it anymore. I leaned into to her and pressed my lips to her.
I half expected her to pull back and punch me and run. No, I entirely expected her to do that. But, she didn't. She kissed me back, smiling while she did it.
When we finally detached for air she wrapped her arms around my neck.
"I love you, Kris." She whispered in my ear and hugged me tighter.
"I love you too, April."

I caught my star.

Chasing Stars --5--

So, I'm not gonna lie, I'm having a lot of trouble writing this. The last few days I've been on here starting new posts and ending up deleting them cause I think they suck. This update is kinda crappy, but I put a lot of feeling into it. Enjoy.





**KRIS"S POV**

Over the next few months, April had become a part of the team. She was like a little sister to most of of, and more like another daughter to the older guys and Mario. Any time we went to Diesel the team would look out for her like every guy was going after a sibling. It was like that with every guy on the team. Every guy except me.
I truly couldn't help the way I felt. I couldn't look at her like a sister like everyone else. I couldn't even look at her as a best friend, which is how she saw me. I wanted to be so much more to her. I wanted to be her new Bryan. But I knew it would never happen.
Isn't it strange how life works? How we always want what we can't have more than anything? It's truly like chasing stars. We can see what we want so clearly everyday of our lives, but we can never reach it. April was the star I wanted more than anything.
April and I had come so far as friends from where we began. When we met, she was distant, and wanted nothing to do with me. No, she turns to me whenever she needs me. Whether it was stress about school, or calling me in the middle of the night, crying over a dream about Bryan. It hurt me to see her in pain, which is why I didn't chase her more.
I just wasn't enough to fill the hole he left.


**APRIl"S POV**

I loved this team. Every player treated me like I was a part of their family and I loved it. And then there was Kris.
Kristopher Letang. Most people would have labeled him as my best friend. But truthfully, I wanted him to be more than that. So many people thought I was stuck on what was, but I slowly began to move on after the night I put my ring on Bryan's grave. I was a new person in so many ways.
I started caring again,. Not only about myself, but about everyone around me. Kris and I talked to eachother about anything and everything. He was the person I knew I could laugh with, and the shoulder I knew I could cry on. Bryan's death left a massive hole in my heart, but Kris and the team filled it almsot entirely. Well, mainly Kris did.
I really learned just how much I meant to the team and Kris on March 27th, when the Penguins played the Flyers. The teams already hated eachother, but somethings that night fueled the fire.
I was walking into the arena from my car when I was approached by a familliar, but not so friendly face. Dan Carcillo.
"Hey you! Pens trainer girl!" I heard the voice from behind me booming through the empty halls. I took a deep breath and put on my toughest look before turning around to face Carcillo.
"Yes, Mr. Carcillo?" I put as much attitude as I could into my words.
"Ohhh. Temper. You know, that's pretty attractive." He added a wink for good measure. Shit. Here I was expecting a legitimate question, and I get an ugly oaf hitting on me. Lovely.
"What's wrong sweetheart? Speachless in the sight of me?" Carcillo let out a chuckle as he tried his lines.
"Uhm, ok. Dan, no. Just no." I started to walk past him to get to the locker room when he grabbed my arm.
"Carcillo, let go of me. Now"
"No, I think I'll pass on that" He took a step closer. As squinted my eyes shut and turned away from him someone grabbed my other arm.
"Carc, back off." I looked up to see Staalsy glaring daggers at Carcillo.
"Thank God" I though as I took another step toward Jordan, hiding away from Dan as much as I could.
"Oh, Jordan. Is one of your little brother's gonna come help you?" Carcillo has a disgusting sneer on his face. I really wanted Jordan to punch that shit eating grin off his face. Just as I felt Jordan tighten his grip on me and familliar set of arms wrapped around me and grabbed me away from Jordan and Carcillo.
Kris.


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